summer just, like, ended

Started a new writing project with some friends and friends of friends and I'm feeling rusty. Also feeling a lot of anxiety . It's been one year since I went back to school and my life is not noticeably different. There's more clarity of purpose at least but the metaphorical clock is ticking. Feel like I need to come up with some sort of employment fast. How can I do that with out feeling like I'm settling? Maybe I should just settle. Hate being that over-qualified guy. Well I'm not so much 'over-qualified,' more like I have an abundance of non-relevant qualifications.

But this writing thing might be neat. Might be. Still early days and I don't feel super invested in it. It's nice that it's someone else's responsibility. Someone else can worry about SEO and social media and posting things to reddit. Met with one of the guys spearheading it. I'm skeptical at his ambitions. Podcasts? But I think it's a mark of growth (or something) that I can step back and say sure let's see what happens. It's a lot easier to do that with someone else's baby. I'm the guy with doubts. Is that worth something? The trick seems differentiating between being practical and being negative. Not always so easy.

This also means getting back on the old horse ("You're doing heroin??" "No! I'm back on the bike!" "What's bike?") Haven't written serious history stuff in awhile. Got that performance anxiety. But it's like this: you choose something you are genuinely interested in and than try to communicate that interest with words. It's not that hard.