loveletter

there this girl right. it feels good to have a crush. i don't do it enough. a person's heart should flutter every now and then. the usa is rejecting the laissez faire approach to economics. maybe i should reject my laissez faire approach to love. it will happen when it happens but it doesn't happen this isn't a sitcom. we're not going to be comically thrown together when the elevator breaks down, when the teacher pairs us up for groups, when i bump into her on the subway. ok there is a window: we have tutorial together. one hour a week in the same room. after tutorial is the only chance. or sit down next her in lecture by "accident". i did that once and didn't realise it till the end of the lecture but all i did was smile and say hey. hey. that reads a lot dumber than it was, i think.

this is good. i need a record somewhere that this happened. i don't want to forget this little spark. i'll probably starve it of oxygen but at least this will be here as a beacon or memorial or something. goodnight.