happiness, the pursuit of

Hey! I'm happy right now. Like literally smiling as I type this. I thought it would useful just to mention this for posterity, to have it recorded somewhere that, yes, this an emotion I am capable of. It might not last, I might become overwhelmed (well, I will become overwhelmed, but let's pretend for now that it might not), things may become darker down the road, but for today, and tomorrow and a maybe a few days more, things are really good. I'll hold on to that for as long as I can, or at least the memory of it to remind myself why I'm doing what I'm doing. And what's helping fuel this beyond my own small successes (and the fact that I picked up a fucking stylish pair of new glasses yesterday (material possessions make man happy, news at 11)), in a funny self-perpetuating sort of way, is the successes of my class mates as well. The thought of all of us reaping the work we put in (with some grumbling along the way) and triumphing and accomplishing new things and basically being out there conquering the world every Tuesday and Wednesday is kind of special. These people are starting to mean something to me. Their successes are my successes, mine are theirs, we are in this together (almost ended that with a cynical little 'etc' but today is not about cynicism). ENJOY THIS FEELING WHILE IT LASTS.